The fear

There are times when I don't ask questions for fear of not wanting to know. I don't think that sounds weird at all. And it's not limited to questions. Like if you have access to something private. Like the email account of someone. Or perhaps a blog. Some people say that there's no such thing as too much information. I say there is. I've always believed in this and imagine my surprise when I watched a rather sappy movie about a woman who owns a flower shop and catered to a wedding reception. The couple were in love. At least that's how I saw it. Well, jumpin' to main course, the flower woman was a lesbian. The bride was stirred with questions about her own sexuality when the two women met. The part that struck me was the part where the husband started to get a whiff of her wife's dilemma. Now, I should tell you all, the husband is a GOOD guy. I mean, a really good guy. He turned to his best man for comfort or whatever leaving him drunk and lying on the couch. The wife decided to be honest and told everything, without mentioning any names, to his husband who we see is sleeping. But he's not. He did that so they won't get into anything that will leave his new wife upset. Told you he's good. In fear of losing his marriage, the husband tried everything he can to turn his wife back to the point of getting flowers from the flower woman who, at that exact moment was in heavy petting with his wife. (gasp!) The flower woman felt sorry for the husband and suggested that he should ASK his wife about it. The husband calmly replied "I can't do that. I'm too afraid of what I'll know."

The title of that movie is Imagine Me and You. It starred Piper Perabo, Lena Headey and Matthew Goode.

My love life, past and present, is mirrored towards that movie. I just wish I can be as good as Matthew.

Aprenda Morales...

Why should he open his mouth so big about beating my man, Manny? Yeah he lost like 30-something pounds which, some say is the factor for which he lost. I don't wanna get more into my projectile slurs. He had enough for today. (especially on his jaw, hehe)

CONGRATULATIONS MANNY! We always believed in you.

96% Fat free

I've been on this "diet" for over a month now. I think it's coming along coz I was on constant weight-gaining momentum going on before I started and now, not only did the momentum hit the brakes, I lost a couple of pounds. I can't say how much coz I don't wanna jinx it. I have abstained from rice since the start. I'm actually surprised I was able to survive till now.

I would also like to share that I had a rather, severe tooth problem. Three weeks ago my tooth, particularly one of the molars on the lower arch became consistently painful. I mean throbbing PAIN and swelling gums. To top that, my left cheek was almost filled with abscess and swelling. It was like I had mumps. A deformity I was literally and physically hurt by. This actually helped in my diet. It's been a while since I dished out an oxymoron. I couldn't open my mouth more than an inch. I mean, my thumb would have to be forced through my front teeth for it to enter. That's how narrow it is. It will also mean, I can't chew properly. I only eat soup and fruit shakes for almost two weeks. It's not so bad actually. I'm just afraid that now that I got the full functionality of my mouth, I'll forget about dieting. Cross your fingers.

Envy.

It's funny how boredom and curiosity don't mix sometimes. I have been waiting for 2 customers to leave so I decided to cure my boredom by checking Friendster and Google. Bad move.

I started seeing these people who we're close friends of mine that are in London for conferences or in the states as immigrants. Then there are also the ones that never left the country but are doing even better than others. They are married, have cars, building their own homes, partying and meeting celebrities and artists. I felt a pang of envy.

I have nothing against these people. It's just that, I look back and see my life and wonder if I'll ever get even near what they have. I keep on convincing myself that I'm here and I just have to make the best of it.

Another thing that is in line with the title is I felt left out. I know what you're thinking - duh! But hear me out...

On second thought, I retract that last snivel.

I left. Therefore it's normal to feel a little out.

ang idol kong rakista

There are a lot of reasons why I watch the noontime show, Eat Bulaga. Aside from watching it since they were on Channel 9, I love seeing Julia. (ooohhh) Julia Clerete, ladies and gentlemen, is one of the reasons I tune to the show. She's amazing. She's cute, funny, talented and has a black belt in taekwondo. I'll give you a more detailed profile of her in my coming entries. I waited till I can download her carrier single "bumalik ka lang" before I talk about her. I had to sweep the internet for the lyrics, thanks leiababe, for them.

Bumalik ka lang

magandang umaga,
nandyan ka na pala
di halos makatulog
sa pag-aalalaka

musta naman dun,
masaya ka naman ba?
tandaan mo lang
pag doo'y sawa ka na

bumalik sa akin
nangangakong ako'y maghihintay sa'yo
tuparin mo ang iyong pangakong
buuin ang puso ko

bumalik ka lamang....

ilang taon na bang dumaan
ilang taon pa ba dito sa tagpuan
mag-isa pa ring ngumingiti
naghihintay pa rin sa'yong pagbabalik

bumalik sa akin
nangangakong ako'y maghihintay sa'yo
tuparin mo ang iyong pangakong
buuin ang puso ko

bumalik ka lamang..
ohhhh ohhhh
bumalik, bumalik ka lang
bumalik, bumalik ka lang
bumalik ka lang

Here's the video of that song. I'm sorry if it's not your dish but I like it. Enjoy!

http://leiababe.multiply.com/video/item/15

Julia... you rock girl!