Just came from a semi-hiatus. I felt I needed one. I planned it so I made the most of my freedom from the rigors of work and personal problems.

Sometimes we need that. (i know.. a cliché, but I had to say it)

Seems the high of romanticism can bring out the best of a person. The highs and lows. The seemingly insatiable thirst for intimacy. I tell you.. it's bliss. I know it's a sudden diversion from the normal idea I previously blog about but it's what triggers me to think deeper these days.

Some of us have great stories - pretty stories that take place at lakes with boats and friends and noodle salad. Just no one in this car - but a lot of people, that's their story - good times, noodle salad. What makes you mad is not that you had it bad, but that you're pissed that so many others had it good.

These are the words from "As Good As It Gets". Personally, I didn't enjoy the film as much as other people did but that line got me. I am happy to say that I was one of those that got it GOOD. I had my share of bad to worst... well, I still do, but that's not the point. Sometimes, in the midst of that ordeal, you have one that keeps your knees firm. That force that can still stretch your mouth sideways when you think of it. That's what I have. That's what I celebrate right now. The world is scary for it throws you what it can to knock you down but, somewhere, in the back of our minds, we have that light. That hand that pats us on our back and whispers, "you still have me". And at some point, it all seems to go away. For a split second maybe, but it still aided without your calling, bantering or wagering.

Let the tigers come with their claws... - the little prince

I am not living to the name I have as a blogger. Blabbermouth.. pfft! Yeah right. I'm a shame.

If you would accept me again, I will try harder to squeeze every morsel of idea or thought I have in my head and share it. (nah.. too dramatic but you get the picture)

I've been rockbottom these past few weeks. I am tempted to shout "doesn't it ever stop?". Too much for the quarter life crisis crap. I feel I'm too young for these problems but then again, my problems my not be that serious compared to people older the moi. At least I have something to equate all of this challenges.

I was having a chat with my work friend on our break. He's married and has a son. It came to the point I was asking what it was like when they started the marital road. He gave me the "don't-worry-about-it-too-much-everything-will-eventually-fall-into-place" diatribe. But, I do believe he really subscibe to such. He's doing well now. He has a firm spirituality, I will give him that. I can't believe I'm thinking about settling down or something remotely close to marriage. And who said men are afraid of commitment?

Maybe it just needs the right person and the right moment. It's not exactly when you are ready. Financial stability is just an added bonus. But I do want to give my future family a brighter future. (whoa, who's talking?)

Seriously, I may not make that much but I want to have a problem-less start with my marital life. I still believe when Jason Mraz said "I won't worry my life away" Too much planning may just make thing's worst.

Here's to everyone who wants to start a new Life with his own Family. God will make a way...

Honestly, I don't know how to react to these circumstances. I mean, I can't take all the crap in the world except this. This takes the cake.

A friend of mine died.

God bless his soul.

...I'll see you around Albert.

It's been a while...

I've been meaning to continue blogging but I honestly don't know what happened.

A lot has been happening these past few weeks. A mixture of every emotions and reactions. Nevertheless, I am happy.

As cheezy as it sounds, it equalizes with my other perennial problems.

I just lost my touch again. I'll get back to you.

Au revoir!